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Lonely at night

Totem and Scarlet Court aren’t here tonight. Neither is Moonshine. None of them are answering my calls.

This is what makes all of this so hard to bear. Not being able to breathe without feeling like I just got stabbed in the lungs, not being able to feel things with my hands anymore, not being able to walk at all…I’d be able to easily take that all in stride if I just had one of the only three people I consider my friends here with me.

I don’t want to sound selfish. Except maybe I do. I know I’ve asked a lot from Moonshine. She was the only one there after my parents died. And I know I’ve really only just met Totem and especially Scarlet Court, and those two are here a lot and that’s great. But nights like this, and that’s every night, the only thing I ever need is someone who I care about to be here for me and not leave me alone with my thoughts and my nightmares.

I know. Totem is a superhero and so is Scarlet Court. They have duties, just like I did before I got all knocked up, and not in the romantic-comedy way.  But Moonshine? We just got her off the hook for a killing spree and she hasn’t even stopped by to say “hey, best friend I’ve known my entire life, how are you feeling? do you need anything? like someone to distract you so you don’t break down again?”

All she’s done is train her fancy-ass new spider pet.

The forest is really lonely at night.


Sometimes, I wonder…

Things I’ve learned while being out of commission:

Being all alone in a cabin all day is actually pretty boring. And by “boring”, I mean there’s a distinct lack of distractions, which is a bad thing for me. Especially right now. Sure, Totem’s here some days and so is Scarlet Court. But they’re out in the city just as often, doing whatever it is they’re doing. Mostly patrolling. And hanging out. That’s the part that gets me the most.

And Moonshine is still by the penthouse. I haven’t even heard her voice in weeks, let alone seen her. I get updates from Scarlet Court every now and then. I hear she’s gotten a new pet, some garish spider thing that looks like one of Dr. Synergy’s spider things. I’m not surprised. Scarlet Court tells me Moonshine’s been “training it”, which she keeps using as a justification for Moonshine not coming by to see me.

Bound Radical’s more or less off the radar. Totem and Scarlet Court haven’t told me anything about what he’s up to and I haven’t asked. He doesn’t seem to be too much of an outright danger. A thief, maybe, and a purveyor of supervillainous wares. But not an express danger.

Speaking of Bound Radical, and this is the reason I brought him up. Having robotic hands is weird. There’s all kinds of nerve systems in them, tiny pressure plates or something that let me feel when I’m pressing up against something, but they don’t let me feel things. There’s no pain or anything with these. I can’t feel how cold it my bed is at night or how warm Totem’s hot chocolate is. It kinda sucks.

Most nights, when Totem and Scarlet Court are either asleep or not here, it’s so quiet here. I never really noticed how quiet it gets in this cabin until I stopped being able to leave it. Now I’m pretty much isolated, trapped in a cage of wood in the middle of the silent forest.

So that’s pretty much why I need distractions. It’s quiet, and quiet lets me think, and thinking makes me remember how much pain I’m in, makes me remember the nightmares I have every couple nights, makes me remember everything I’d really rather forget.

Totem’s been talking about pulling a Batgirl-turns-Oracle thing with me, but most of the tech we’d need for that is at the penthouse. We talked about it earlier today. He went by there and talked to Moonshine about maybe moving me in there, partly so I’d have access to that tech and partly so I could be with her. He hasn’t come back yet.

She didn’t seem very enthusiastic, according to him.

Sometimes, I honestly wonder why I was ever friends with her. But I try not to. That just makes me think of the secrets she’s apparently kept from me and how terrible of a friend she’s been and it makes me wonder how we ever worked as superheroes to begin with.

Maybe we should never have become superheroes. It doesn’t seem like we’ve been doing a very good job of it. Just like Kick-Ass, except with actual powers and the psychopathic superhero-turned-supervillain father of my best friend taking a hacksaw to the hands  and a boot to the chest instead of a dopey green wetsuit and a knife to the gut.

Maybe I’ll be better after I get better. Maybe Moonshine will be there for me then too.

Maybe the forest is filled with flying monkeys.


Right. Let’s update one arc at a time here.

First up: I’m out of the hospital now, though not healed by a long shot. I’m hanging around the cabin now, with Totem looking after me. My legs are still broken. My chest still hurts. My hands are still Skywalkered. But at least I feel like I’m at home here. Even though he visibly tries to keep himself from caring too much for me, I still appreciate that he’s around as much as he is.

Moonshine is done with her little Night Stalker rampage, racking up a grand total of nine villains. I can’t remember most of them. I can remember Peer Review and Daddy Issue, though. She killed Daddy Issue on the night of the solar eclipse.

Totem and Scarlet Court found her rooting through the wreckage of Dr. Synergy’s lab. She still hasn’t told anybody why she was there, but given what I know about Synergy, I can pretty much guess why. She fought them off, but Totem ended up subduing her and taking her to the police. Scarlet Court didn’t like that very much, but we were able to work a complicated little mass of deals.

Well, I say “we”, but it was really more like Bound Radical working some secret shit he hasn’t told me about. He hasn’t blogged about it either. Annoying. Anyway, as it turns out, he’s been working out some stuff with Fleshmonger, trying to get back into his good graces for the express purpose of helping Moonshine out. He was able to blackmail Fleshmonger (by aging all of his “assets”, I assume, and refusing to de-age them until Fleshy gave him what he wanted) into having Commissioner Barracuda let Moonshine off more or less scot-free for her rampage.

This turns out to have been part of Johnny Ocean’s plan to get Commissioner O’Hanlon back in place, as he published evidence connecting Barracuda with Fleshmonger in the Sun, and further evidence exonerating O’Hanlon. I dunno, it’s complicated, and I doubt it’s entirely legal. I’m sure the whole thing played out like one of Tarantino’s better movies in Ocean’s head.

So once O’Hanlon got back in and replaced Barracuda, we were able to convince him to let Moonshine on probation, given that she had only killed villains, and not innocents. As long as she doesn’t leave the county or kill anybody else for a year, she’s free.

So that’s good. She’s been holed up in the penthouse pretty much ever since. She refuses to talk to Totem, but Scarlet Court is another story, and one I doubt I’ll hear. It turns out Scarlet Court really is her sister, though they’ve kept quiet on the full story for now.

I hear Moonshine got a new pet, but nobody’s told me what it is yet. I didn’t think she was the type for pets myself.

Bound Radical is back to being a “neutral” underground party, or whatever he is. I haven’t really spoken to him in a while, and he hasn’t updated his blog since he and Totem took down Dr. Synergy.

As for Johnny Ocean, let me just say that he asks some pretty skeezy questions. I agreed to the interview, but not the support of his little Facebook thing, which I see hasn’t come to much. If you’re interested, the interview’s in tomorrow’s Spotlight Sun.

So that’s pretty much everything. Like a poorly-wrapped Christmas present left under a dead tree.